As the thunder rolls I step outside without inhibition

Just in time to see lighting streak the sky

Water pours down with ferocity

I can't pretend to ignore the reflection

I see of my soul's storm

Watching with pain, I see your smile in my mind

I hear your laugh echoing with the falling droplets

Feeling memories from years passed

Warms my heart and then leaves me shivering cold

I wish that I could, but I can’t, explain all this pain

It's like acid’s infiltrated this rain

And as it falls down upon my face

I receive the overwhelming sting of your death

Feeling so empty and small in the presence of nature's power

I look for answers in the sky

Hoping for anything to get me by

Beautiful, dark clouds collide,grumble, and then burst

I close my eyes to hear the gentle whisper of your words

Our golden memories flood my head

For one blissful second, again you’re not dead

In a moment drenched in nothing and everything all at once

I remember those good times when you'd spit your rhymes

I see you move with the beat, like it's rhythm was yours eternally

Those good days when your very presence filled a place

Everything you mean to me is locked in these precious memories

Dripping with pain and soaked to the bone

I think of your music and how it changed me

Because of you, I learned  Pac said “Life Goes On”

But how, and why, do you choose to move along

When the heart lives in the past

Where you, my friend, still breathe

All I want is to see your face and that smile

But now it hurts to even hear your name

I don't think I'll ever be the same

The anger from the sky is slowly letting up

I can see a ray of hope straining to share some beauty through the darkness

It's liberating to see that truly, "for every dark night there's a brighter day"

But I'm not ready to dry up, nor am I ready to say goodbye

 

Yet I know you’d wish no tears

You gave direct orders to live and love our years

With a smile and a tear, I begrudgingly welcome the sun

Appearing behind a cloud to showcase a rainbow 

I could pretend this isn't what it is

But I know better than to throw aside any of God's gifts

Though it’s hard to fully understand

I know you’re on the side of His right hand

You look down from time to time

Because,like now, I can feel you by my side

It's the hardest move I'll have to make

But I steady myself and muster the strength to turn

... and walk away

Stripped to the core I make my first step

Toward a new life without you

And without all that you've ever been for me
 

With a heavy heart, I ache for those you loved

I pray that in their lives they find peace

And for them  genuinely to believe

That this storm is God’s sign, symbolic of terrible, grieving times

But still a promise to them, and to me

That the Sun will return eventually

Words could never express what you mean to me

Thank you for our golden memories